{"id":1741,"date":"2011-09-19T15:36:42","date_gmt":"2011-09-19T12:36:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bloggen.fi\/skruttet\/?p=1741"},"modified":"2011-09-19T15:36:42","modified_gmt":"2011-09-19T12:36:42","slug":"stundtals-gor-det-ont","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/?p=1741","title":{"rendered":"Stundtals g\u00f6r det ont&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: left\">Inget speciellt i dag&#8230;. En helt vanlig sk\u00f6n m\u00e5ndag. \u00c4r lite nere.<a href=\"http:\/\/www.skruttet.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Waiting_for_you_III_by_Nighthaze1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-1743\" src=\"http:\/\/www.skruttet.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Waiting_for_you_III_by_Nighthaze1-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Waiting_for_you_III_by_Nighthaze1-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Waiting_for_you_III_by_Nighthaze1-449x300.jpg 449w, https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/09\/Waiting_for_you_III_by_Nighthaze1.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nHar lite tr\u00e5kigt. En vilsen, tr\u00f6tt fluga surrar runt i rummet. \u00a0Musiken spelar p\u00e5 som alltid n\u00e4r jag bloggar. Den lockar fram k\u00e4nslorna och v\u00e4cker skrivarlusten i mig.<\/p>\n<p>Jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 Adoptionen, p\u00e5 v\u00e4ntan&#8230; Nu \u00e4r vi inne i en tid d\u00e5 det sker lite d\u00e5 och d\u00e5.<br \/>\nSedan kommer v\u00e4ntan, v\u00e4ntan och \u00e5ter v\u00e4ntan&#8230;. K\u00e4nner att jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00f6rbereda mig mentalt f\u00f6r den. Hur l\u00e5ng v\u00e4ntan kommer att bli vet ingen. Inte heller om v\u00e4ntan ger n\u00e5got resultat. \u00a0Det \u00e4r jobbigt att inget veta. Stundtals g\u00f6r det ont.<\/p>\n<p>L\u00e4ngtan river s\u00e5&#8230; Igen!! Det vrider sig i hj\u00e4rtat p\u00e5 mig, en t\u00e5r rinner ner f\u00f6r min kind. Sminket runt \u00f6gonen smetas ut. Det skiter jag i&#8230; Drar en djup suck&#8230; Ny luft i lungorna&#8230;. Det \u00e4r sk\u00f6nt att gr\u00e5ta&#8230; efter\u00e5t k\u00e4nns det mycket b\u00e4ttre&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c4nglag\u00e5rden k\u00e4nns bara stundtals s\u00e5 &#8221;stor&#8221;. Och runt om mig v\u00e4xer magar, vaggas barnvagnar, diskuteras sm\u00e5barnsliv&#8230; Bl\u00f6jbyten, sovtider och r\u00e5dgivningsbes\u00f6k.<br \/>\nJag lyssnar intresserat, vill veta och delar i hj\u00e4rtat lyckan! Det g\u00f6r jag!<br \/>\nK\u00e4nner mig bara s\u00e5 konstigt utanf\u00f6r n\u00e4r man inget har att diskutera, bara sitter och &#8221;Umm&#8221;-ar med.<\/p>\n<p>Kliar mig i huvudet och t\u00e4nker: N\u00e5gonstans, n\u00e5gong\u00e5ng kan det vara vi. Vi som funderar och vill veta&#8230;. Hur gjorde ni, hur k\u00e4ndes det f\u00f6r dig&#8230;. Vi m\u00e5ste bara v\u00e4nta, hoppas och v\u00e5ga tro att den dagen kommer. Tills dess f\u00e5r vi anv\u00e4nda tiden till att f\u00f6rbereda oss inf\u00f6r den nya rollen. Rollen som f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar!<\/p>\n<p>\u00c4nglakramar!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\"><span style=\"font-size: 13px;line-height: 19px\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=5Pze_mdbOK8&amp;feature=relmfu\" target=\"_blank\">Whitney Houston &#8211; I Look To You<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Inget speciellt i dag&#8230;. En helt vanlig sk\u00f6n m\u00e5ndag. \u00c4r lite nere. Har lite tr\u00e5kigt. En vilsen, tr\u00f6tt fluga surrar runt i rummet. \u00a0Musiken spelar p\u00e5 som alltid n\u00e4r jag bloggar. Den lockar fram k\u00e4nslorna och v\u00e4cker skrivarlusten i mig. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/?p=1741\">Forts\u00e4tt l\u00e4sa <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3,8,14],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1741"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1741"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1741\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1741"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1741"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1741"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}