{"id":577,"date":"2008-04-20T15:46:09","date_gmt":"2008-04-20T13:46:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/opassande-t"},"modified":"2008-04-20T15:46:09","modified_gmt":"2008-04-20T13:46:09","slug":"opassande-tayrar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/?p=577","title":{"rendered":"Opassande t\u00e5rar&#8230;..???"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/bilder.bloggen.fi\/skruttet\/b\u00e4nk.JPG\"><img src=\"http:\/\/bilder.bloggen.fi\/skruttet\/thumb_b\u00e4nk.JPG\" align=\"right\" border=\"0\"><\/a><\/p>\n<div>L\u00e4gger fingrarna p\u00e5 tangentbordet, det bord som p\u00e5 sneare tid har blivit n\u00e5got av en v\u00e4n&#8230; Stannar upp en stund, gl\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 d\u00f6rren till mitt innesta rum&#8230;. Det g\u00f6r ont&#8230;..L\u00e4gger handen p\u00e5 hj\u00e4rtat&nbsp;och&nbsp;f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker lyfta ut det som&nbsp;g\u00f6r ont&#8230;. Ut, bort fr\u00e5n mitt inre!!<\/div>\n<div>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>Pl\u00f6tsligt blir jag&nbsp;arg p\u00e5 mig sj\u00e4lv f\u00f6r att jag inte finner ljuset i tillvaron nu&#8230;. Ljuset finns d\u00e4r, det vet jag! Jag har min \u00e4lskade &lt;3 &#8211; \u00e4ngel, underbara \u00e4nglar i min n\u00e4rhet&#8230;.. Uppskattas och \u00e4lskas massor!<\/div>\n<div>\u00c4nd\u00e5 g\u00e4star t\u00e5rarna mig ofta&#8230;. Det \u00e4r t\u00e5rar av tacksamhet, t\u00e5rar av lycka, t\u00e5rar av k\u00e4rlek&#8230;&nbsp;Men ocks\u00e5 t\u00e5rar av sorg, r\u00e4dsla och&nbsp;maktl\u00f6shet&#8230;. <\/div>\n<div>Jag har sv\u00e5rt att gl\u00f6mma det onda, p\u00e5minns ofta om den genom knivstick och drar mig f\u00f6r att g\u00e5 p\u00e5 toa f\u00f6r st\u00f6rre behov&#8230;. En m\u00e5nads v\u00e4ntan tills tarmskopin \u00e4nnu&#8230;. Kanske borde undvika allt vad cider o annat heter nu, verkar \u00f6ka sm\u00e4rtan.<\/div>\n<div>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>Salta t\u00e5rar b\u00f6rjar rinna ner f\u00f6r kinderna&#8230;..T\u00e4nker p\u00e5 kramar&#8230;&nbsp;Jag har \u00e4lskat att kramas och bli kramad&#8230;. En period var jag r\u00e4dd f\u00f6r n\u00e4rheten&#8230;. Jag beh\u00f6vde mitt utrymme&#8230;. Och kom n\u00e5gon f\u00f6r n\u00e4ra knuffade jag bort dem&#8230;. Trots att jag mer \u00e4n g\u00e4rna ville krama&#8230;. R\u00e4dslan blev som en sp\u00e4rr&#8230;. Jag kunde inte&#8230;. <\/div>\n<div>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>Sen lyckades jag komma \u00f6ver denna sp\u00e4rr och klarade av kramar fr\u00e5n \u00e4nglar i min n\u00e4rhet&#8230;.. \u00c4nglar som visste min sits&#8230;.<\/div>\n<div>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div>Jag trodde jag kommit \u00f6ver min r\u00e4dsla&#8230;. Men nej, den finns d\u00e4r&#8230;. Kanske borde jag g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got \u00e5t den?<\/div>\n<div>Jag sk\u00e4ms inte f\u00f6r t\u00e5rarna som kommer, kommer dom s\u00e5 kommer dom&#8230;.. Men d\u00e4remot sk\u00e4ms jag f\u00f6r att jag gr\u00e5ter p\u00e5 s\u00e5 &#8221;opassliga&#8221; st\u00e4llen och tillf\u00e4llen&#8230;.<\/div>\n<div>&nbsp;<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>L\u00e4gger fingrarna p\u00e5 tangentbordet, det bord som p\u00e5 sneare tid har blivit n\u00e5got av en v\u00e4n&#8230; Stannar upp en stund, gl\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 d\u00f6rren till mitt innesta rum&#8230;. Det g\u00f6r ont&#8230;..L\u00e4gger handen p\u00e5 hj\u00e4rtat&nbsp;och&nbsp;f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker lyfta ut det som&nbsp;g\u00f6r ont&#8230;. Ut, bort &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/?p=577\">Forts\u00e4tt l\u00e4sa <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[14],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/577"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=577"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/577\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=577"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=577"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.skruttet.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=577"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}